This is my 150 post: SORRY for all those HARLO msg by me, it was JASLIN TOH who did it! Oh my god! Being with jaslin ia really make you laugh larhh. She can do a sort of thing just to make the atmosphere better, she is a good entertainer sia. Next time you're emoing or confused just fine her will do. Laugh. Hooray, i'm going to buck up for EOY! And not thinking of other things that doesn't happen to me again for life. I won't waste my time on you. Laugh. I hope i can do it! Laugh. W/o you, i'm better! I can be more relax, trying to think all the good point. I hope i'm not lying to myself nor anyone. Hehexx. Sometimes also can be quite irritating de being alone. Cause many thing you could think off sia. Hmmm, going to find a job asap after EOY. Hope ppls want to hire me ba. If not, i can go die le. I don't want to rot again in holiday cause it suck alot. Grrr, $$$ that all i want. LOL. What should i do sia? When i praise you guys, the next minute you went back to that le. Grrr, serious i hate it. How i wish i could leave. Haiyo, i hate all those nagging, comment, insult that you give me. I don't want all this from you. I don't even expect you guys to give me encouragement but can don't insult me, you think i want to be like this. NO! I don't want that too. Grrr, you never ever spare a thought for me. Do you ever think of my feeling? I think you don't. Getting busier, trying not to think about you, but there are still times that make me think of you. Grrr, what happen sia? I hate it. Why can't i do it? I know i can, i can't give up halfway that is not me! I'm not that kind, that is not my attitude. Hmmm, is not that easy seh. Since from the start, i already choose this le. I should face it and forget it! Asking myself so many question. 1st, why must i be so devoted to you? 2nd, Why i can't be like you so heartless? 3rd, I am wondering am i better/ worsen w/o you? 4th, Why? Why? Why? I can never know this answer. Forget it, i shouldn't care about it anymore. Sorry for the msg and for giving you false hope ba. Sorry about that. I didn't mean it de. Cause i am so confused too. I don't neo what should i do or i don't know what i want now. Is kinda messy and complicated now! That is all i feeling now. Who can help me? Seems like no one is helping. Kinda sad. Hope i can solve this on my own. After EOY, hope so. You don't neo me that why you say all this of craps over here. Please get this clear over your head, if that the reason then don't listen to what i say then. WTH. Why must you listen making me think that you wanted to listen but this is all craps. Grrr, i shouldn't tell you anymore. Regretted all this. I shouldn't be so stupid. Nevermind, say all you want. I know that i'm not that despo then can already. Cause i know veri clearly that i'm NOT. You and him... ... Haiyo. I swear i not going to say any word out of it now. Accept for 1 or 2. But not all. Cause i don't want ppls to say i'm a what like you say. And i'm gonna keep the secret tightly. No one know. I swear.
♥I wonder am i better or worsen w/o you?♥
Tuesday, September 15, 2009, 9:11 PM